Guaranteed

There's no reason to rush.  I'm in the midst of being bogged down by tasks and to-dos.  I'm finally taking a moment this week to STOP doing stuff.  It has been a week full of work and tasks.  Even the stuff that seems like it should be a break isn't because I'm thinking of the next thing and trying to get through it.  That's dumb.  Enjoy the thing then do the next thing.  Remember Taher that they are get-to-dos.

There's always something competing for our attention.  Moula never wants us to rush.  There's always something to rush to like a task or a chore so that I can relax.  Again, that's dumb.  In economics terms, there's always an opportunity cost.  Always.  Afterall, the hurry is rushing from something.  Just stop to ask, what am I rushing from?  

There is no guarantee of time.  This is easy to say and easy to understand, but hard to internalize.  A favorite movie of mine has a line that is stuck in my brain.  It is so wise when I think about it.  "No amount of money ever bought a second of time."

Taher, do the thing because there is no guarantee.

Scenic Route

Work is busier than I'd like.  This has happened before and it'll happen again.  I'm sure that it's a common experience.

I had the chance to go harvest some stuff and eat it for lunch.  It was so satisfying.  My garden is literally bearing fruit.  Well vegetables, so not literally I guess.  It put work into focus for me.  I'm taking a break and not doing any.

I was reading a book that made an analogy that people were walking on a path.  I didn't get it then, but I do now.  I love gardening:)  I remember listening to this beautiful song about walking on a trail.  The people and the views changed along the way and the grass grew tall behind.  We're all walking on a path.  The view will change.  

The thing that I got today is that the trail goes to the same place for everyone. We just don't know when we'll get there.

Taher, take the scenic route.  The views are better.

Hiking

It's more often that I just sit and observe these days.  It's sometimes harder to sit and be still.  If I'm honest, sometimes it's easier to sit and not do the thing.  

I love being in nature.  I love just sitting and appreciating it.  Sometimes just sitting is the way to do that.  Sometimes it isn't though.

Hiking isn't nearly as easy for me as it used to be.  It's just not my thing anymore and that's fine.  Yesterday though, I went on a hike here in the Smoky Mountains.  It was hard.  I tried it anyway.  It was beautiful.  It was worth it.  Not because it was beautiful though.

I needed help, but I've accepted that I need help for things.  Yusuf was helping me.  He was going at my pace and was so aware of what I needed.  It was almost magical that he was anticipating what I needed.  I can't even articulate what I need.  I was feeling so proud.

This is the thing that made it most worth it though.  Just as I was thinking to myself how proud I was, he said, "Abba, I'm proud of you.  I know this is hard for you and you're doing it.  I'm so lucky to have an abba like that".  Wow.

Taher, do the hard thing.  The kids are still watching.